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well thanksgiving break was aweeesooommeee...im sad that its already over but i had tons of fun! but 3 more weeks of school and then we have 2 weeks off! and im soo excitied for that! umm well i dont know if this xanga thing is working cuz i never really have the time to type everything i did so i think elle and kylie are gonna set up a myspace for me cuz they rock and christmas break is gonna be awesome w/ them too but dont worry ill still have my xanga up and try to update it once in awhile lol
<33 much love
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| umm havent updated in awhile....nothing really new is going on, same old same old
but im super excitied about thanksgiving break!!! its gonna be awesome...but this week is going by really slow, i hate it
well i love you
that picture reminds her of everything she used to be. all the things that have slowly drifted from her appearance, but still lie in her heart. it's a daily reminder of the way she's changed. and every day she grows farther and farther from it. but she doesn't quite know why. why doesn't she just stop this change and go back? simple. because she can't. and that's what it means to grow up. let go of the past. live without fear of tomorrow or regret of yesterday. just do it.
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| well that was a wild crazy fun weekend :)
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Well heres some stuff that i wrote...
& he told me to look in his eyes & tell him what I want & I just closed my eyes and turned away, cause ive been through all of that before...ive heard the lies, ive played the games, been played, heard all the lines and all the sweet talk...so don't ask me what I want, just tell me whats the point?
I want to get excited about something and look forward to something…that feeling in your stomach where you cant help but just feel weak inside but eager to have more…I want to feel something again, I want to care, I want have that little school girl crush, that when you see him, you just cant help but smile…I want it to mean something to me, something so much more. I just want to care again but I think im just too scared to now
By: ME lol
well i love yall!
MUAH
***Sometimes the hardest things to say are the things that really matter....
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| life is good and thats pretty much all i got to say
HAPPY BDAY TO CATY and ELISE!! i lovvvee yall!
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people been saying that i need to update so here it is lol....
Life is going pretty good right now, classes are same old same old...bball is okay, starting after school pratice on wednesday...joy lol and i have my first drive time this wednesday also...they're picking me up after school so thats gonna be cool, i just want to get it done and over w/ lol and this weekend i found the car of my dreams! its a 2002 jetta volkswagen sliver...its sooo cute! my mom called and emailed them soo hopefully i can go test drive it or something
anyways ive been soo confuse lately over some stuff...like i when i go out, i just wanna have fun and do whatever but some times i think of certain guys and want them to be there w/ me and everything...and be more then just hanging out but i dont want to be asking for too much....i guess im just gonna use to things...cuz being in a serious relationship for 6 months, you just get use to always having someone there...i dont know just need to think that crap over cuz i dont want to be screwing myself over for nothing and jumping in to things too fast cuz i do just wanna have fun but just other times i want something different. i think my worst fear is getting hurt and i just hate guessing and second thoughts on everything..i wish everything was soo clear and simple and that u knew what your getting yourself into before you get in it lol...wow that would be so much easier but w/e its life...ill get over it lol
well i love yall and i hope everyone has a awesome week!
<33 claire
and he said:
you're cynical and beautiful
you always make a scene.
you're monochrome delirious
you're nothing that you seem.
i'm drowning in your vanity
your laugh is a disease.
you're dirty and you're sweet.
you know you're everything to me.
& i want to tear down at your defenses
till there's nothing there but me.
you're angry when your beautiful
your love is such a tease.
i'm drowning in your dizzy noise
i wanna feel you scream.
Have you ever felt so [ boxed in ] like you needed s p a c e, but at
that same exact time, felt so far away and needed just one
person to talk to? Have you ever felt so alone, but at the same
time felt like no one will leave you alone? Have you ever been so confused and just have no thoughts what so ever, and the ones that you do have, are just complete negatives? Have you ever felt so unwanted…but then again everyone telling you they want you...but then you just don’t know what to do about it
i have.
a simple whipser from your voice & i fade away.... | | |
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